What SI is: Precursors to Self Injury

[Wedge]

This thread relates only to the specific web page in the title above, which is found on the FirstSigns website at:

http://www.firstsigns.org.uk/what/precursors.html

This thread is for people to discuss this single page. If you have general comments about the FirstSigns website, you can post a new thread in the 'FirstSigns' forum.

[bigbird]

Iread the pages above. I agree sometimes the disassociation feeling is when the self harm makes you feel, takes that numb feeling away and awakens you.

Also when you are hyper and overwhelmed that can lead to triggers that make you self harm.

I GUESS IT RECOGNIZING THESE AND CHANGING THE PATTERN....not so easy though in practice.

BB

[ruins1]

I have both of these problems. I dissasociate and feel numb sometimes and at others I just have a feeling that I need to get out. The strange thing is that I also tend to dissasociate when a feeling gets overwhelming. So that the two seem to intermix. The feeling is usually one of self-hate, for something I think that I have or haven't done. I have a very difficult time forgiving myself for past transgressions. Each one becomes a huge black mark on myself never to be forgiven. I know logically that these mistakes are just that but I can't seem to forgive myself all the same.
Or sometimes my head just gets too filled with ideas and other noise and I need to quiet it down. I hear all sorts of criticisms and other miscellaneous noise in my head. It quickly becomes very confusing and a bit disturbing. I need to stop it. Make it go away. So I SI. And that puts a stop to everything. All of the self-doubt, anger, dissassociative feelings, voices etc.. Trouble is that it only lasts for a brief period before more SI is required in order to quiet it. And so continues the cycle. Hope this makes sense to somebody..

[Charlotte]

I think i'm mainly the hyperstress one, but can relate to the dissociation one... although that was a long time ago

Things tend to just get too much for me... I don't necessarily think i get triggered, and nothing externally triggers me. But then i guess there are things that 'send me over the edge' or my mood just changes, and that's what makes it too much. So i guess it depends on the definition of a trigger.

It's all really interesting stuff though

[munchbunch]

I have a used to si because of a mixture of the two

love and hugs
munchiexx

[Wedge]

Keep them votes coming!

[Dagny]

I voted for the hyperstress only option. I have disassociated (or at least, looking back on it now, I guess that's what it was) but I didn't actually SI to come out of it.

Hyperstress though? Yes. A lot.

[Eliza]

I experience both, but I voted for disassociated because that's when I SI

[john]

with me, the hyperstress is rare. it's generally this foggy disassociation,
kind of a cloud, and the cutting makes me feel safe, and like no one can hurt me anymore.
It's like I go away somewhere. I don't know how to say it.

[Wedge]

Any more votes?

There's a PDF version of this page for printing, should you wish to show anyone offline.

[fatcat]

Shouldn't this have a circularity in it somewhere?
Otherwise, this is a one-off event.

I would suggest that a precedent is set which causes this to happen again as a likely solution.